August, 29th, 2018
I have always been under the belief that I was gifted somehow in not needed as much sleep as other people. That I even defied all the studies out there on the number of hours of sleep needed EACH night.
I believed that I could function well, be nice mannered and sleep less than most women could.
Even after I have observed all of my family members get less sleep than they should. And witness how nasty and difficult it was to deal with them.
I was different. I didn’t need sleep. I was immune.
Don’t get me wrong I agree with the studies on sleep.
Like most people, I guess, I fell willingly into the trap of believing that I was an exception to the rule.
It didn’t apply to me.
As long as I can remember, I have always had a hard time falling asleep. It also doesn’t help that I love staying up late. All of these things, in my mind, confirmed my long-standing belief. That I didn’t need as much sleep as most people do.
For those of you with children, you know that they can act as mirrors. They act out your good qualities and take up our bad habits. All for us to see and deal with. Some are great moments and others are… ones that make you reflect on your own life.
My sweet Vanessa’s strongwilled-ness in regards to not wanting to sleep has brought me to one of those reflective moments.
Most nights are a struggle to get her to go to bed. And if that was not hard enough, the fewer hours she has of sleep the more destructive she gets during the day. At this point, I feel we have done all we can do with her right now. So the only thing left that I can change or control is… ME.
Besides Prayer of course.
God’s Current Assignment For Me
Yesterday. Last night, and this morning. God showed me, in love, what I act like, feel like and sound. Well- rested, tired, exhausted and overtired. Let me tell you these last…48 hrs have been… enlighting.
I had to be someplace at 8:45 am and it was 45min away. It was something important and special and I wanted to be my very best for it. I was in bed at 8:12 pm the night before, reading and playing a game on my tablet( which is a bedtime no no- that’s for another post or a link). I was probably sleeping between 10pm- 11pm. I woke up the next morning, I had everything ready the night before, so all I had to do was eat and drive. – Please note: not at the same time.
But on this 45 min drive, I noticed something… I felt like myself, silly, happy, full of joy, ready for the day. Frustrations popped up, annoyance happened, but all and all they really didn’t overly affect me.
3 pm, after a very nice day of A LOT of thinking and little to no water- long story. I was thirsty and pooped. In all honesty, I really needed a nap. My eyes hurt and I almost couldn’t drive, but I needed to eat something more than sleep. So my son, who was with me, and I went to Woodman’s to get a celebration ice cream (coconut- non-dairy version) we had just found this past weekend. We talked about the day while eating it in the car and I rested my eyes while he ate the last few spoonfuls.
On the way home, we picked up a couple more items at another store and drove the last 45 min home. Thankfully my son was in a talkative mood, but now the little things of the day started to bug me more. I was looking forward to going to bed early because I thought for sure I would be so tired that I would just fall right asleep.
We ate dinner, I watch two short Tv shows with my daughter, tucked her in and watch one 45 min show with my almost already asleep husband. My head hurt too much to read, so I played my usual tablet game, but that too hurt my head.
As usual, I just closed my eyes, as I tell my daughter to do, and tried to fall asleep. But I couldn’t. My mind was racing, but it wasn’t. My body was tired, but I was uncomfortable. I couldn’t sleep no matter how hard I tried.
After remembering a sleeping trick that I had recently read about, it stated something like; if you can’t fall asleep after 15min in a dark room and so on, to get up and read a book, sitting up in a chair. I was so tired and I wanted to sleep so bad, I decided to go downstairs and try it. I read almost 3 chapters and decided to try to sleep again. I did take an herb a doctor suggested for my daughter to sleep just to see what it was like for her. To better help her and of course to see if I could sleep too.
I fell asleep. But I have no idea what time and it was not restful sleep.
Aug 30th, 2018
Woke up still tired and not ready for the day.
This morning felt so different than how I remember feeling the day before.
After prayer time, I could see how hypersensitive to every little thing I was. I think in the past I had chalked it up to OCD or just being particular.
It has been a lack of sleep this whole time. I need sleep just like everyone else. Maybe even more than everyone else.
Come along with me as my family and I work out this sleep journey together. The first step in any journey is knowing where you are going. Right now God’s destination for me is to figure out this whole sleep thing once and for all. Maybe not a permanent solution, but one that my daughter and I can work within for now until God shows us the next step.
In My Sweet Abundant Life’s Journey with HIM!
Disclaimer– These are my current action steps, I have not tried them or tested them out yet. I have no idea what will happen or if they will work. Read further at your own risk.
- I ordered Holy Basil from Dr. Axe website. -I am not a fan of ingesting “essential oils”, but I do trust the source, it is USDA organic and it does have supplement facts on it. All good things. I think I will try to diffuse and follow the recommended uses from his site first.- This is supposed to help with sleep.
- Continue with being present and mindful each night.
- Find new ways to drink more water consistently, because my hypothesis is that when my daughter and I are dehydrated that we have a harder time sleeping as well.
I will update other action steps as I go.- ( Just being honest, these updates are slower)
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